I heard you’re doing good.
That’s great! I’m doing better!
I kinda felt the need to write you this letter.
See, I actually doubted myself and thought, without you, I wouldn’t make it
And for days these tears streamed down and the pain I couldn’t take it.
I went through endless hurt, desperation and anxiety
Couldn’t begin to express all the feelings that were inside of me
Lost weight, gained it back, started eating to cope
With the thought of you and me still being my last hope.
Yes, you apologized and made excuses like I knew you would do.
Told me how bad you felt and proclaimed that this situation had you blue
Then you moved around, met another and you are an item now
You left me all alone with my insecurities wondering, “HOW?”
You see, I gave you me…all of me. That’s all I could…
With hopes you’d never give me back, thought it was understood…
But there I was alone and a voice began to speak…
It hit me like a boxer getting knocked out in a boxing ring
I had an epiphany, an awakening it seemed
It was God residing in me saying, “I am all that you need”
The nights I cried it was He who held me close
I sought his word and I found out that He’d never let me go
The more I prayed and read His word I continually heard Him say,
“Seek after my word, abide in me and I will brighten your days”
I took back the energy I had placed in you and placed it back in God
His word is true. He’ll never leave nor forsake me against all kind of odds
I’ve grown so much found the beauty in me and grown into a Queen
I’ve surpassed some obstacles, faced some challenges and am fulfilling my dreams
He’s been so good and even through the rough times of this summer
I still ate, had all I needed because He wouldn’t let me slip under.
And yes I still have growing to do and now I’m walking daily in his word
And now trusting in him is not unheard
I admit, for a moment I was a bit envious of what it is you’ve found
And in the fact that what I lost, someone else now had a round
But I heard that “God will never give you something somebody else is supposed to have”
So I know now that the title of “someone else” wasn’t up for me to grab
I accept what God is doing in my life
He’s preparing my life for everything that in His sight, is right
I’m much better because of all we went through
So I’ll take these last moments to just thank you.
This letter was not meant to bash you and trash you
Nor was it meant to devalue you
This letter was me speaking life back into myself
It’s me taking hold of my own wellbeing and health.
It’s my liberation and closure and dependence upon the Jesus
It’s my one step closer to me inheriting His Kingdom
You see the love I gave to you is no longer up for keeps
I’ve taken it back, wrapped it in His word and I’m keeping it within reach.
Thank you for releasing me and giving me wings to fly
And now, with God’s help, I’m heading towards the skies.
I have goals and aspirations that were once shadowed by you
I’m at a place in my life where the only thing that matter is making my dreams come true
I’m fierce, fearless, God fearing and a super kinda girl
You were one of the few lucky ones that I let get invited to my world.
My world is not closed its open and I exude transparency
In hopes that the next one will see all that’s inside of me
I’m glad you’re good… I’m glad you’re fine
Just had to take a bit of time
To free myself of the thoughts of you in which once my mind was occupied
I’m focused on the things ahead, on God, and on things which once were denied
Made some changes to myself, situations and my surroundings and I’m enjoying me
Loving me, treating me right, I manifesting my own destiny
Taking time to appreciate my inner and outer beauty each and every day
And thanking God for this chapter in my life that I finally close today
In your prayers I hope I’ll stay and forever you’ll stay in mine
And for you taking that time to read this I am much obliged ….